Breaking News Flash!! Apparently i haven’t stopped growing up.

Let me be frank: I really only just figured something out about myself, and while it should have been one of those earth-shattering revelations that only comes along once in a blue moon, it wasn’t that at all.

I wasn’t surprised. Not even in the slightest.

I stumbled across something about a former colleague and it brought into sharp relief what that person has been up to versus what i’ve been up to since year X.

Whilst puffing upon one of my Christmas cigars, I realized the crux of my conundrum: This person has drive. They had a vision for themselves and continued, long after we parted company, to strive for said vision. And I have been hopping trains.

I am very capable at almost anything i come across. But nothing grabs me. Not in the way that it did this person. And the irony is at the time of our shared experiences, I would have said that I was deeply passionate about the focus of my life at that time.

Here’s the catch:

I’m actually ok with this realization.

I mean I really like my life. I love my wife and kids. I am happy in my vocation. And while I still entertain thoughts of dabbling in past distractions, the get-up-and-go to actually bring it out of the Matrix inside my head is just a little more work than I want to put forward.

All this to say: I think i got my shit together. More to follow.

You may now return to your regularly scheduled bloggraming.